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May 24, 2010 | 11:02 PM
又到了写blog的时候咯...
说真的, 从我生日过后的那一天到最近我都过得不这么开心
原因就不想多说了
其实自己也不懂是发生什么事
人与人之间感情
我才发现原来是如此的脆弱
有时会想放弃
但是想起来, 要为了别人要放弃自己的理想
不值得 ...
要在这里开心的过下去
其实没什么头绪
因为总不懂别人想什么
互相猜度只是让关系变得糟糕
说不要为了小事伤心
这说不上是小事
可是毕竟也有几个月的感情
朋友
究竟对我来说 是什么
现在才懂不是每个朋友都像自己的老朋友那样
也许这里的朋友只是个名词
此时此刻,
我很想这三年赶快过完
因为我很想要开心
其实
我很容易满足
我只是要开心
我只是要有很好很好很好的朋友...
但是这个我懂 failed ...
因为这里不会有
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会很讨厌 别人的脸色
只是很想说,
我不是你的谁
就算是朋友 我也没有必要忍受你超烂的脾气
有时很想摊开出来,
但是我不想 因为我觉得自己调整调整自己的心理
就没有必要没事找事做
因为, 我们都大了
会很无奈fb的status
因为 ....
自己懂啦
ok ... 啰嗦完了
发现最近都在写着这样的东西...
我看我要stop了啦 ...
hahahahhahahaha ////
因为要开心 !!!
说真的, 从我生日过后的那一天到最近我都过得不这么开心
原因就不想多说了
其实自己也不懂是发生什么事
人与人之间感情
我才发现原来是如此的脆弱
有时会想放弃
但是想起来, 要为了别人要放弃自己的理想
不值得 ...
要在这里开心的过下去
其实没什么头绪
因为总不懂别人想什么
互相猜度只是让关系变得糟糕
说不要为了小事伤心
这说不上是小事
可是毕竟也有几个月的感情
朋友
究竟对我来说 是什么
现在才懂不是每个朋友都像自己的老朋友那样
也许这里的朋友只是个名词
此时此刻,
我很想这三年赶快过完
因为我很想要开心
其实
我很容易满足
我只是要开心
我只是要有很好很好很好的朋友...
但是这个我懂 failed ...
因为这里不会有
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会很讨厌 别人的脸色
只是很想说,
我不是你的谁
就算是朋友 我也没有必要忍受你超烂的脾气
有时很想摊开出来,
但是我不想 因为我觉得自己调整调整自己的心理
就没有必要没事找事做
因为, 我们都大了
会很无奈fb的status
因为 ....
自己懂啦
ok ... 啰嗦完了
发现最近都在写着这样的东西...
我看我要stop了啦 ...
hahahahhahahaha ////
因为要开心 !!!
Labels: expression, feeling ♥
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May 03, 2010 | 7:50 PM
Troubles are never end ~~~
This always happens on me ... I duno why ~
Friend
again and again ... friend ~~
It's not easy being others' friend ...
I try very hard sometimes to mix with my own friends ...
I don't feel like they are my friends ~~
It's hurting me when they act like hell
I thought I can have really really friends here ~~
But, now seem not dy
I try to act like normal ... while my heart is really freaking broken
不懂是我多心还是什么...
就是觉得感觉很不舒服
但是能怎样...
习惯就好咯... 陈韦伶
This always happens on me ... I duno why ~
Friend
again and again ... friend ~~
It's not easy being others' friend ...
I try very hard sometimes to mix with my own friends ...
I don't feel like they are my friends ~~
It's hurting me when they act like hell
I thought I can have really really friends here ~~
But, now seem not dy
I try to act like normal ... while my heart is really freaking broken
不懂是我多心还是什么...
就是觉得感觉很不舒服
但是能怎样...
习惯就好咯... 陈韦伶
Labels: feeling ♥, random · life
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May 01, 2010 | 7:51 PM
Had been years never update my blog d ~
I am so freaking lazy to update it :)
My roomates were all goin back to the hometown !
So, i am alone in the room now :( freaking bored
Was out to sunway this morning with jowyn !
wasting money day again ... bahahaha
i wanna to buy alot of stuff but ... insufficient money is the problem ==
and i think i can't keep wasting money on clothes !
but, girls are always like that ~
I had forced myself dun step in ICON ...
the stuff thr are nice !
mayb next week ? bahahahhaa~~~
feel sleepy ...
but i am so addicted to facebook !
don;t like college life ~
but i miss tat senior ! hehe
don;t the place which i sat in class for past 2 weeks !
so freaking bored to play with myself thr or
mengintai the senior beside thru the crack ... @@
sometimes i just don;t understand why ...
tat friend behave like this ...
it's irritating to see her when joking, laughing while talk to those malays
but muka masam when talk to me ...
i m so sad you did tat on my birthday.
i was crying in the class because of that...
i can't believe i did tat ! I tot i dun care for this ....
but actually i care for it so badly !
before goin out !
I am so freaking lazy to update it :)
My roomates were all goin back to the hometown !
So, i am alone in the room now :( freaking bored
Was out to sunway this morning with jowyn !
wasting money day again ... bahahaha
i wanna to buy alot of stuff but ... insufficient money is the problem ==
and i think i can't keep wasting money on clothes !
but, girls are always like that ~
I had forced myself dun step in ICON ...
the stuff thr are nice !
mayb next week ? bahahahhaa~~~
feel sleepy ...
but i am so addicted to facebook !
don;t like college life ~
but i miss tat senior ! hehe
don;t the place which i sat in class for past 2 weeks !
so freaking bored to play with myself thr or
mengintai the senior beside thru the crack ... @@
sometimes i just don;t understand why ...
tat friend behave like this ...
it's irritating to see her when joking, laughing while talk to those malays
but muka masam when talk to me ...
i m so sad you did tat on my birthday.
i was crying in the class because of that...
i can't believe i did tat ! I tot i dun care for this ....
but actually i care for it so badly !
before goin out !
Labels: feeling ♥, random · life
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March 08, 2010 | 8:45 PM
很久没有update料咯...
今天一个人回到casa subang, 我今天off所以回到家时一个人
然后我今天就是一整天对着facebook.
有点纳闷...
很久没有让自己放空了... 这里的生活太忙了
轮不到有放空的时间...
最近发生了很多事情...
不觉得自己还可以在这里生活两年多..
虽然不是认识很久, 但是毕竟我是真的有掏心掏肺来对待别人...
当翻脸的时候, 我以为过一阵就会没事.
可是其实别人怎么想你不懂...
就算是很多年的友谊会变质, 更何况是几个月...
我跟自己说, 不要再做白痴... 成天说人白痴, 其实自己才是做大的白痴
我不懂自己期待什么...
现在的我是很希望赶快过完这三年...
有时候, 我不懂要怎样面对他们...
什么人都一样... 很绝望~
我只是希望一切恢复正常...
我做回我...
其他的, 就这样吧... ==
haih~
今天一个人回到casa subang, 我今天off所以回到家时一个人
然后我今天就是一整天对着facebook.
有点纳闷...
很久没有让自己放空了... 这里的生活太忙了
轮不到有放空的时间...
最近发生了很多事情...
不觉得自己还可以在这里生活两年多..
虽然不是认识很久, 但是毕竟我是真的有掏心掏肺来对待别人...
当翻脸的时候, 我以为过一阵就会没事.
可是其实别人怎么想你不懂...
就算是很多年的友谊会变质, 更何况是几个月...
我跟自己说, 不要再做白痴... 成天说人白痴, 其实自己才是做大的白痴
我不懂自己期待什么...
现在的我是很希望赶快过完这三年...
有时候, 我不懂要怎样面对他们...
什么人都一样... 很绝望~
我只是希望一切恢复正常...
我做回我...
其他的, 就这样吧... ==
haih~
Labels: expression, feeling ♥
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December 15, 2009 | 9:16 PM
我不懂 我不懂 我不懂
我真的真的不懂自己要怎样
别人要我怎样
我要别人怎样
也轮不到我要别人怎样
明天还有考试
可是, 我是完全完全不想去理.
记不起这是第几次...
可是, 我懂不可以这样!
又能怎样????
我真的真的不懂自己要怎样
别人要我怎样
我要别人怎样
也轮不到我要别人怎样
明天还有考试
可是, 我是完全完全不想去理.
记不起这是第几次...
可是, 我懂不可以这样!
又能怎样????
Labels: expression, feeling ♥
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July 27, 2009 | 3:20 PM
我快疯了啦~!!! 最近真是很多恼人的事....
没有解决方法就只能等咯. 我真的很烦~!!
真是觉得自己真的很糟糕.
argghhhhhhhhh~!!!!!
很烦啦~! 怎么办?
做么要现在才来跟我讲换日期...
而且还要等那么久,那我要干嘛 =="
我看只有去做工吧. 顺便可以存一些钱 =)
好笑吗.... ==
现在我担心的是怎样开口跟爸爸讲.
他一定骂死我料咯.
haih~~怎么办... 我想哭了 T.T
为什么我这样的不幸啊??????
为什么最近发生这样多令人懊恼的事~~
不是朋友的事..就是钱的事..不是钱的事..现在就是读书的事
永远都有问题的人生... 为什么~!!
可以让我休息一下吗??? 我很累咧
怎样开口...谁可以教我~~
haih~反正我就是不配有很好的人生...不配有很好的生活...
不配有很好的朋友...
自己已经开始进入emo的心情料...
是我的问题我知道 ==
okay...好吧~ 坦然的面对啦你陈韦伶.
心里却挣扎:我做不到 T.T 怎样好?
曾经是看过这样的一句话啦...
不祈求有很好的生活, 只祈求自己可以很坚强的面对生活.
挺有意思的. 那等下就祈祷让自己更坚强吧 =)
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我也不懂自己在干嘛其实...
只是把当下的心情都写了出来, 感觉很累...
我要去睡觉了. 然后再规划自己应该怎么样吧
我只希望自己在对的时候做自己该做的事.
话是这样说的吗? ... 其实我不知道
Arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!
好想像狮子一样的大声怒吼一次 =)
我希望自己可以养一只吃素的狮子....... ==" *okay我傻了*
其实, 我更希望有好朋友. =)
好啦..我废话完了啦. =)
没有解决方法就只能等咯. 我真的很烦~!!
真是觉得自己真的很糟糕.
argghhhhhhhhh~!!!!!
很烦啦~! 怎么办?
做么要现在才来跟我讲换日期...
而且还要等那么久,那我要干嘛 =="
我看只有去做工吧. 顺便可以存一些钱 =)
好笑吗.... ==
现在我担心的是怎样开口跟爸爸讲.
他一定骂死我料咯.
haih~~怎么办... 我想哭了 T.T
为什么我这样的不幸啊??????
为什么最近发生这样多令人懊恼的事~~
不是朋友的事..就是钱的事..不是钱的事..现在就是读书的事
永远都有问题的人生... 为什么~!!
可以让我休息一下吗??? 我很累咧
怎样开口...谁可以教我~~
haih~反正我就是不配有很好的人生...不配有很好的生活...
不配有很好的朋友...
自己已经开始进入emo的心情料...
是我的问题我知道 ==
okay...好吧~ 坦然的面对啦你陈韦伶.
心里却挣扎:我做不到 T.T 怎样好?
曾经是看过这样的一句话啦...
不祈求有很好的生活, 只祈求自己可以很坚强的面对生活.
挺有意思的. 那等下就祈祷让自己更坚强吧 =)
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我也不懂自己在干嘛其实...
只是把当下的心情都写了出来, 感觉很累...
我要去睡觉了. 然后再规划自己应该怎么样吧
我只希望自己在对的时候做自己该做的事.
话是这样说的吗? ... 其实我不知道
Arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!
好想像狮子一样的大声怒吼一次 =)
我希望自己可以养一只吃素的狮子....... ==" *okay我傻了*
其实, 我更希望有好朋友. =)
好啦..我废话完了啦. =)
Labels: expression, feeling ♥
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June 16, 2009 | 7:54 PM
今天我以为可以很开心的驾我的老爷车, 说要去练一练的嘛....
刚开始的时候....唉~~~ 我撞破别人的花盆.!! 我的天啊~ 我吓死去了...但是, 我不忘的是立刻马上驾走...haha~~!!! 还好周围都没人, 不然我真的会觉得更无奈.
好啦...正当我要再次的去练一练时, 走到半路它竟然 ==" 死火在路中央. 我顿时...."不会吧, 为什么是这时候" 我马上start回engine咯, 哪里知道...它并不争气....完全不能start. 我想:"太尴尬了吧...为什么是在这条路死火 ==" 我只能说, 是我自己命苦...是我自己衰.
我们还向附近的人求救了. 还好, 大家都很有人情味 =) 很开心. ^^ ermmm....就在这边跟那个uncle再说次谢谢吧."uncle, 谢谢你咧...=) " haih~他也应该不会看到咯. 还有, 我很想申明. 我是真的会驾车的好吗? 搞不好驾得比你好咧...哼~ 算了, 我不跟那些肤浅的人计较那么多... =) 就这样....我等爸爸回来..他那时候在chai leng park... 那时对我来说, chai leng park是北极.好远~ 然后爸爸就施法把车弄活了在家回家里. =)
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故事到最后....我知道 穷人不好当. =) 有时会想为什么自己那么苦命啊~~~!!! 有时会想为什么上天要我经历那么多... 有时会想为什么我就不能向其他人一样过一些正常的生活. 不需要很多钱. 就小康就好了啊... 我没有很贪心吧 ==" 我就知道全世界的人都会看不起我.... 哼~ 我家是真的没钱, 但是我能怎么样... 我没有得选. 我很想念妈妈, 但是怎么样... 我不可能看到她, 不可能跟她说话. 我也没有得选. 很多时候不是我要怎样就怎样.
有时候我真的会怨天怨地. 真的 ==" 但是, 想想在地球的另一边可能有人比我还要经历更多. 我就会觉得自己没有怎么样.
唉.......我很无奈. 想到大家的冷言冷语..."哎呀, 你的车不能驾料的啦", "ermmm, 叫你爸爸换一辆那个新车啦", "我看这辆车不能驾了吧"........听了我又能怎么样. 耳朵如果有门可以关上, 我可以不听. 但是它没有. 我爸爸虽然已经订了一辆车, 但是他会供得很辛苦咯... 有时候, 我会想叫他不如取消订单吧. ************ 我很矛盾咯到最后. 我活这么久以来, 自从妈妈不在后, 我总觉得别人讲的话都是在羞辱我们家穷. 有来过我家的人应该知道我家的状况吧... 难道说搬就搬吗? 难道我想外面剩一条路走到来门口吗? 我没得选... 我真的很讨厌听到难听的话. 你们根本不会明白, 所以不要在我面前讲这种废话. 世界就是那么多肤浅的人...谁也拿他们没办法 ==" 我真的觉得很无奈.
okay...murmuring~ 只是随便写一写而已咯. not to offend anyone =)
Going to complete my homework now. Bye.
刚开始的时候....唉~~~ 我撞破别人的花盆.!! 我的天啊~ 我吓死去了...但是, 我不忘的是立刻马上驾走...haha~~!!! 还好周围都没人, 不然我真的会觉得更无奈.
好啦...正当我要再次的去练一练时, 走到半路它竟然 ==" 死火在路中央. 我顿时...."不会吧, 为什么是这时候" 我马上start回engine咯, 哪里知道...它并不争气....完全不能start. 我想:"太尴尬了吧...为什么是在这条路死火 ==" 我只能说, 是我自己命苦...是我自己衰.
我们还向附近的人求救了. 还好, 大家都很有人情味 =) 很开心. ^^ ermmm....就在这边跟那个uncle再说次谢谢吧."uncle, 谢谢你咧...=) " haih~他也应该不会看到咯. 还有, 我很想申明. 我是真的会驾车的好吗? 搞不好驾得比你好咧...哼~ 算了, 我不跟那些肤浅的人计较那么多... =) 就这样....我等爸爸回来..他那时候在chai leng park... 那时对我来说, chai leng park是北极.好远~ 然后爸爸就施法把车弄活了在家回家里. =)
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故事到最后....我知道 穷人不好当. =) 有时会想为什么自己那么苦命啊~~~!!! 有时会想为什么上天要我经历那么多... 有时会想为什么我就不能向其他人一样过一些正常的生活. 不需要很多钱. 就小康就好了啊... 我没有很贪心吧 ==" 我就知道全世界的人都会看不起我.... 哼~ 我家是真的没钱, 但是我能怎么样... 我没有得选. 我很想念妈妈, 但是怎么样... 我不可能看到她, 不可能跟她说话. 我也没有得选. 很多时候不是我要怎样就怎样.
有时候我真的会怨天怨地. 真的 ==" 但是, 想想在地球的另一边可能有人比我还要经历更多. 我就会觉得自己没有怎么样.
唉.......我很无奈. 想到大家的冷言冷语..."哎呀, 你的车不能驾料的啦", "ermmm, 叫你爸爸换一辆那个新车啦", "我看这辆车不能驾了吧"........听了我又能怎么样. 耳朵如果有门可以关上, 我可以不听. 但是它没有. 我爸爸虽然已经订了一辆车, 但是他会供得很辛苦咯... 有时候, 我会想叫他不如取消订单吧. ************ 我很矛盾咯到最后. 我活这么久以来, 自从妈妈不在后, 我总觉得别人讲的话都是在羞辱我们家穷. 有来过我家的人应该知道我家的状况吧... 难道说搬就搬吗? 难道我想外面剩一条路走到来门口吗? 我没得选... 我真的很讨厌听到难听的话. 你们根本不会明白, 所以不要在我面前讲这种废话. 世界就是那么多肤浅的人...谁也拿他们没办法 ==" 我真的觉得很无奈.
okay...murmuring~ 只是随便写一写而已咯. not to offend anyone =)
Going to complete my homework now. Bye.
Labels: feeling ♥
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May 28, 2009 | 7:45 PM
chatting with friends in class today. ==" wasting my time on study.
yea, I am the person who always wasting time.
bio... still lots need to view on. The teacher went through it very fast. I felt darned sleepy when the teacher started to read those pieces of words in the notes. with lots of structural of the molecule and so on. situation get into more worse when we came to the subtitled "protein".
wow~ it's definitely "fantastic" subtitled we had. lame =="
a lot of info about DNA, RNA. pissed off with those stuffs.
I just wonder how I am going to read through these and bumped into STPM. alright, I should have positive- thinking. haha~
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have a talk with my friend again. yea, he met some problems again =="try to advice him on how to solve it although I am not the expert. But, I gave the opinion to him as floating in my mind. haha
we met lots of problems in our life. communicate is about 2 persons not only gesture the problem onto someone. we learned lots of how to communicate well with others in daily life.
that's what I get from him when he told me his own suffer. I learned something too from this. =) See! we learned things in every occurs. LIFE. ^^we should appreciate what we had now.
appreciates any relationship we had now. As we do not know any about our future, so what we can do now is try to appreciate whatever we had now.
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^^tired now. craving now ~!! going to take my dinner d.
Bye.
yea, I am the person who always wasting time.
bio... still lots need to view on. The teacher went through it very fast. I felt darned sleepy when the teacher started to read those pieces of words in the notes. with lots of structural of the molecule and so on. situation get into more worse when we came to the subtitled "protein".
wow~ it's definitely "fantastic" subtitled we had. lame =="
a lot of info about DNA, RNA. pissed off with those stuffs.
I just wonder how I am going to read through these and bumped into STPM. alright, I should have positive- thinking. haha~
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have a talk with my friend again. yea, he met some problems again =="try to advice him on how to solve it although I am not the expert. But, I gave the opinion to him as floating in my mind. haha
we met lots of problems in our life. communicate is about 2 persons not only gesture the problem onto someone. we learned lots of how to communicate well with others in daily life.
that's what I get from him when he told me his own suffer. I learned something too from this. =) See! we learned things in every occurs. LIFE. ^^we should appreciate what we had now.
appreciates any relationship we had now. As we do not know any about our future, so what we can do now is try to appreciate whatever we had now.
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^^tired now. craving now ~!! going to take my dinner d.
Bye.
Labels: feeling ♥, random · life
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May 12, 2009 | 5:50 PM
I am not okay with it~~!!! so, what can I do? haih~
Lots of activities we have to involve. Such a hectic life =) But, this is what I am not looking forward as I don't like it so much. I just wanna try to be simple. What I want is SIMPLE. tau kah? but, now everything seem too complicated for me. Have to stay back in school 2 days a week, have to attend to activities of uniform body on Saturday =="
and I don't really think that I can handle my subjects very well. I'll be lazy as time pass on. I'll be lazy if everything is not smooth as I think. This is my problem of course, and I know I gonna to change my mindset. I gonna to change my life as well. change the method of study, change the attitude on study, change my negative-mindset. and, I sure I won't be easily influenced by friends.
One more thing, that I worry for. It's actually, I don't have lots of friends. Major of my friends are from commerce stream. So, I don't know how I am going to continue my life ==" without friends. especially in tuition, in practice for games. haih~ everything without friends is what I worried for. None of them will understand my feeling.
But, what I' ll try is going to know more friends~~~!!! haha~
Lots of activities we have to involve. Such a hectic life =) But, this is what I am not looking forward as I don't like it so much. I just wanna try to be simple. What I want is SIMPLE. tau kah? but, now everything seem too complicated for me. Have to stay back in school 2 days a week, have to attend to activities of uniform body on Saturday =="
and I don't really think that I can handle my subjects very well. I'll be lazy as time pass on. I'll be lazy if everything is not smooth as I think. This is my problem of course, and I know I gonna to change my mindset. I gonna to change my life as well. change the method of study, change the attitude on study, change my negative-mindset. and, I sure I won't be easily influenced by friends.
One more thing, that I worry for. It's actually, I don't have lots of friends. Major of my friends are from commerce stream. So, I don't know how I am going to continue my life ==" without friends. especially in tuition, in practice for games. haih~ everything without friends is what I worried for. None of them will understand my feeling.
But, what I' ll try is going to know more friends~~~!!! haha~
Labels: feeling ♥
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May 10, 2009 | 11:30 PM
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May 02, 2009 | 5:58 PM
在家没事做的感觉真的不简单. 现在竟然盼望起做工的日子.
只能说自己是劳碌命吧. 我在家就只是上网. 除了上网, 上网 还是上网啦 =)
真的是无法自拔. haha~ 最近repeat这同一首歌.
当初听的时候不觉得怎么样, 可是现在听起来就是感觉不一样.
很久没有打华语了, 感觉有点生疏.
写字嘛....就是做工才有写字咯, 不然我应该也是几个月不写字.
开学后, 我还蛮想继续工作的. 毕竟需要钱啊~
就是想用自己的钱买自己想要的东西... 名牌啊... 一些有的没的~
给我买一个coach的bag就okay了咯. haha~ 能LV是最好咯.
*我在发梦*
讲到开学, 还有几天就要开学了. 我一点都不想上学咧~
就, 其实我早就习惯工作的生活. 突然要我改掉生活方式, 就是会有一点不舍啦.
毕竟人是有感情的嘛... 虽然有时做工感觉吃力不讨好.
但是, 想到要离开就是会舍不得啦.
我的校裙校衣都还没买好. 就连自己要读什么都搞不清楚.
这段日子, 我完全没有去想我要读什么, 我不喜欢什么.
只是一直很忙的在忙自己的事情, 做工、玩、 做工、玩. 就这样~
只是最近当自己松懈下来的时候, 才发现我什么都没想好.
剩下的时间也不是很多. 但我实在是没有心情去想
而且, 我不是很有把握可以打好这场战. 最终逃不过 "懒惰" ~
怎么办好 ~ 每次到了要选着的时候, 我总是想要逃避.
但是这次怎么逃啊? 拜托~ 我不了解我自己 =(
我不想半途而废, 更不想失败. 我只想胜利其实.
可是, 每次想到自己是时候努力, 我总是把持不住懒惰的诱惑.
我现在应该做的应该是定下心来, 好好想看自己在干嘛...
走太快的时候, 是应该停下来看看自己还好吗. 看看四周的人情事故.
哈哈. 实在不懂自己在写些什么...那么多有的没的~
只能说自己是劳碌命吧. 我在家就只是上网. 除了上网, 上网 还是上网啦 =)
真的是无法自拔. haha~ 最近repeat这同一首歌.
当初听的时候不觉得怎么样, 可是现在听起来就是感觉不一样.
很久没有打华语了, 感觉有点生疏.
写字嘛....就是做工才有写字咯, 不然我应该也是几个月不写字.
开学后, 我还蛮想继续工作的. 毕竟需要钱啊~
就是想用自己的钱买自己想要的东西... 名牌啊... 一些有的没的~
给我买一个coach的bag就okay了咯. haha~ 能LV是最好咯.
*我在发梦*
讲到开学, 还有几天就要开学了. 我一点都不想上学咧~
就, 其实我早就习惯工作的生活. 突然要我改掉生活方式, 就是会有一点不舍啦.
毕竟人是有感情的嘛... 虽然有时做工感觉吃力不讨好.
但是, 想到要离开就是会舍不得啦.
我的校裙校衣都还没买好. 就连自己要读什么都搞不清楚.
这段日子, 我完全没有去想我要读什么, 我不喜欢什么.
只是一直很忙的在忙自己的事情, 做工、玩、 做工、玩. 就这样~
只是最近当自己松懈下来的时候, 才发现我什么都没想好.
剩下的时间也不是很多. 但我实在是没有心情去想
而且, 我不是很有把握可以打好这场战. 最终逃不过 "懒惰" ~
怎么办好 ~ 每次到了要选着的时候, 我总是想要逃避.
但是这次怎么逃啊? 拜托~ 我不了解我自己 =(
我不想半途而废, 更不想失败. 我只想胜利其实.
可是, 每次想到自己是时候努力, 我总是把持不住懒惰的诱惑.
我现在应该做的应该是定下心来, 好好想看自己在干嘛...
走太快的时候, 是应该停下来看看自己还好吗. 看看四周的人情事故.
哈哈. 实在不懂自己在写些什么...那么多有的没的~
p/s: i miss you so~
Labels: feeling ♥
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April 29, 2009 | 12:08 AM
I am not in mood now =='' I don't know how to express my feeling in words. I was like mad thinking about him =( Indeed, I do miss him so much, really. But, what can I do. *sigh* I just looking forward a wish from him. I still avid for it, really. haih~ I hope the everything can playback. I miss the time we spent together. I miss the time we always talking about others. I miss the time you drive us. I miss everything we go through together. =)
I don't know what happened to me. I don't know what I blog for. whatever ==
I really not in mood.
Thanks for those wishes =) *especially from colleagues*
I don't know what happened to me. I don't know what I blog for. whatever ==
I really not in mood.
Thanks for those wishes =) *especially from colleagues*
Labels: feeling ♥
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April 06, 2009 | 10:25 PM
Going to work tomorrow. tired =.=
and having outstation to Sungai Wang this week too.
exhausted !!!
Just now, I went hui kee's house. we were chit- chat there as we always do =) I had waste lots money in her house T.T~~ $$$
day pass like this =)
finally, EXHAUSTED ME~
and having outstation to Sungai Wang this week too.
exhausted !!!
Just now, I went hui kee's house. we were chit- chat there as we always do =) I had waste lots money in her house T.T~~ $$$
day pass like this =)
finally, EXHAUSTED ME~
Labels: feeling ♥
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April 02, 2009 | 6:15 PM
*haih* I just get know from my facebook that she will be there tomorrow. my goshhhh~ sure stressful tomorrow.
I don't know I can stand for it or not!!! What should I do now???
-Helpless~ Hopeless~-
Again, I have to stand f or the hot-tempered, uneducated people there.
*sigh*
I don't know I can stand for it or not!!! What should I do now???
-Helpless~ Hopeless~-
Again, I have to stand f or the hot-tempered, uneducated people there.
*sigh*
Labels: feeling ♥
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March 31, 2009 | 11:03 AM
I woke up early in the morning today. after taking breakfast, I switch on my computer and online =) I started read on some blogs. I had read on a post about anniversary of electronics club. I've been absent on it cause of going for outstation to subang.*sigh* I look at the photos there showing they were enjoying some of the shows very much~ I had miss a chance on it. Next year I sure I will be there. I still remember the motto of us: 我们永远是一条心. and the song. haha~
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Going to work later on. haih~ Last time I told that I couldn't work d. But, just now she was asking me to work for half day. siennnnn~ petrol station again =) I don't like to work at petrol station actually because there was full with dust!!! Freak me~ Tomorrow is going to work at Gurney. Hoho~ *winks
Who is looking for part time job? This job is about selling rhb's credit cards. We got provide the transport to you in case of no transport. I also work for this now. The working time is only for weekend, so suitable for who is study. We are having roadshow in shopping center etc etc~(indoor) For more information, please contact me =)
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Recently I was frustrated with the subjects in form 6.Am I suitable for science stream yet? Struggling with it~But I am not interested in commerce. Whatever la~! *haih*
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Going to work later on. haih~ Last time I told that I couldn't work d. But, just now she was asking me to work for half day. siennnnn~ petrol station again =) I don't like to work at petrol station actually because there was full with dust!!! Freak me~ Tomorrow is going to work at Gurney. Hoho~ *winks
Who is looking for part time job? This job is about selling rhb's credit cards. We got provide the transport to you in case of no transport. I also work for this now. The working time is only for weekend, so suitable for who is study. We are having roadshow in shopping center etc etc~(indoor) For more information, please contact me =)
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Recently I was frustrated with the subjects in form 6.Am I suitable for science stream yet? Struggling with it~But I am not interested in commerce. Whatever la~! *haih*
Labels: feeling ♥
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March 24, 2009 | 8:32 PM
Just now have a call from my friend. We were talking about further study. haha~~ I just back into form 6. as many advices about study it. so, no choice. actually I had take some times to decide it. I just wonder that who will in form 6 too. hah~ We talked about many things yet such as bag, uniforms, and alots la =.=
Don't know what to blog pulak. haha~ I just fall in love with the song PK by fish leong and gary. such a very nice song. hehe.
I felt frustrated with my life now. about my job, I really feel lost and confused actually. I know that I do not have a attractive look. But, I actually keep improving my skills. sigh* I duno ~~~sometimes, I used to be evade myself from the problem. I try to cry out and let off my stress.this is my way to face it. but, sometimes people thought I just weak. haih~ I might change it i think.
Going to work again tomorrow at sunshine bayan baru. another competitive day. = = life is so competitive all the time. working even study also.
SPM result ... I had a shit result on it. I am not going to tell anyone about it. haih~!
but I will fight for the next station which is STPM. hoho~ I am not going to be lazy anymore.same as working. =] Actually I am not dissapointed with my result, because myself cause this happenned.
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I wanna earn lots of money to buy my favouritessss! I want to buy some skin care products from skin food.but, it cost alot lerrr~ hmmmm~ I have to work hardly !!!
Lastly, did you heard about earth hour?
please support this activity.it is very simple --- just switch off your light for 1 hour on march 28 8.30-9.30pm. I do love the earth =)
Don't know what to blog pulak. haha~ I just fall in love with the song PK by fish leong and gary. such a very nice song. hehe.
I felt frustrated with my life now. about my job, I really feel lost and confused actually. I know that I do not have a attractive look. But, I actually keep improving my skills. sigh* I duno ~~~sometimes, I used to be evade myself from the problem. I try to cry out and let off my stress.this is my way to face it. but, sometimes people thought I just weak. haih~ I might change it i think.
Going to work again tomorrow at sunshine bayan baru. another competitive day. = = life is so competitive all the time. working even study also.
SPM result ... I had a shit result on it. I am not going to tell anyone about it. haih~!
but I will fight for the next station which is STPM. hoho~ I am not going to be lazy anymore.same as working. =] Actually I am not dissapointed with my result, because myself cause this happenned.
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I wanna earn lots of money to buy my favouritessss! I want to buy some skin care products from skin food.but, it cost alot lerrr~ hmmmm~ I have to work hardly !!!
Lastly, did you heard about earth hour?
please support this activity.it is very simple --- just switch off your light for 1 hour on march 28 8.30-9.30pm. I do love the earth =)
Labels: feeling ♥
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