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May 24, 2010 | 11:02 PM

又到了写blog的时候咯...
说真的, 从我生日过后的那一天到最近我都过得不这么开心
原因就不想多说了

其实自己也不懂是发生什么事

人与人之间感情
我才发现原来是如此的脆弱
有时会想放弃
但是想起来, 要为了别人要放弃自己的理想
不值得 ...
要在这里开心的过下去
其实没什么头绪
因为总不懂别人想什么
互相猜度只是让关系变得糟糕

说不要为了小事伤心
这说不上是小事
可是毕竟也有几个月的感情
朋友
究竟对我来说是什么
现在才懂不是每个朋友都像自己的老朋友那样
也许这里的朋友只是个名词

此时此刻,
我很想这三年赶快过完
因为我很想要开心
其实
我很容易满足
我只是要开心
我只是要有很好很好很好的朋友...
但是这个我懂 failed ...
因为这里不会有

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会很讨厌别人的脸色
只是很想说,
我不是你的谁
就算是朋友我也没有必要忍受你超烂的脾气

有时很想摊开出来,
但是我不想因为我觉得自己调整调整自己的心理
就没有必要没事找事做
因为, 我们都大了

会很无奈fb的status
因为 ....
自己懂啦

ok ... 啰嗦完了
发现最近都在写着这样的东西...
我看我要stop了啦 ...
hahahahhahahaha ////
因为要开心 !!!

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March 08, 2010 | 8:45 PM

放空 || Back to top, baby.

很久没有update料咯...
今天一个人回到casa subang, 我今天off所以回到家时一个人

然后我今天就是一整天对着facebook.
有点纳闷...
很久没有让自己放空了... 这里的生活太忙了
轮不到有放空的时间...

最近发生了很多事情...
不觉得自己还可以在这里生活两年多..
虽然不是认识很久, 但是毕竟我是真的有掏心掏肺来对待别人...
当翻脸的时候, 我以为过一阵就会没事.
可是其实别人怎么想你不懂...
就算是很多年的友谊会变质, 更何况是几个月...
我跟自己说, 不要再做白痴... 成天说人白痴, 其实自己才是做大的白痴
我不懂自己期待什么...
现在的我是很希望赶快过完这三年...
有时候, 我不懂要怎样面对他们...
什么人都一样... 很绝望~

我只是希望一切恢复正常...
我做回我...
其他的, 就这样吧... ==

haih~

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December 15, 2009 | 9:16 PM

我不懂 || Back to top, baby.

我不懂我不懂我不懂

我真的真的不懂自己要怎样
别人要我怎样
我要别人怎样
也轮不到我要别人怎样

明天还有考试
可是, 我是完全完全不想去理.
记不起这是第几次...

可是, 我懂不可以这样!
又能怎样????

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December 06, 2009 | 2:31 PM

词穷 || Back to top, baby.

有人在睡觉...我很闷咯 ==

hmmmm....讲什么好咧...
其实很多东西想讲, 可是我.... 我.... 词穷

我很想形容我当下的心情..
可是找不到适合的形容词...
很无奈~~
人生就是无奈, 无奈就是人生

我只能说, 当颓废感觉又重返时...
我是无奈· 伤心的
现在的我是, 想要做好自己分内事...
得到我想要得到的
其他的, 随便吧

当自己对自己说: 算了吧... 我能做些什么?
我当下的直觉是告诉我不要理的
但是当事情发生时, 我是冲动的
我是否要用脑想过才做每一件事呢...
废话! 我不是"肮脏猫" ! 当然有用脑啦!

很多事情现在正反映着我未来面对的事
说是别人不好, 倒不如调整自己的心态
这句话说就容易.. 做嘛就.....

我的人生就是这样...
说是平平的线, 它不是.
说是起伏落差很大, 它也不是.
我有的就是比普通人还要更普通的人生...

我很努力告诉自己,
还是可以挨过去的...
过去再无奈的日子也已经过去了...
但是, 我没有办法分辨哪种日子更无奈
我很努力告诉自己,
雨后总有天晴...

同样的也告诉着正在颓废的人...
我懂我是讲你的 =]]]]]]]]]

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December 05, 2009 | 9:12 AM

过去的 || Back to top, baby.

突然想起以前在日新的生活...
虽然整天要怕头发被剪, 可是这种生活其实还不赖嘛!
休息时间就去找老朋友去食堂...
在学校的时间还多过在家的时间
因为留校的关系哈哈

最近宿舍发生一些让我很无奈的事...
3个华人和5个马来人能比吗?
马来人有权有力... 我们应该让他们 =]
我真的很无奈.. 宿舍肮脏到...我不懂形容..

可以想象我每天
早上晚上都会看到蟑螂!!!!!
他们还可以觉得这家很干净!!

算了吧... what can i do????? !

my room mates =]

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November 29, 2009 | 9:28 PM

想念 || Back to top, baby.

haih~~~
看回以前电子的照片... haih~~
我想念以前的日子 =]
我想念以前我们一起扛这个那个
虽然很热, 很辛苦, 可是我很开心大家一起的感觉

现在很想很想回到过去...
一天也好...
我怕自己会忘记过去的日子.

颓废的感觉又再来了...

现在的环境没有不好,
只是以前更开心

年初三...
都不懂有没有得回去过节
还想什么年初三

我很没有心情...
想找个人讲话, 可是我要找谁.......

haih~~~

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July 27, 2009 | 3:20 PM

恼火 || Back to top, baby.

我快疯了啦~!!! 最近真是很多恼人的事....
没有解决方法就只能等咯. 我真的很烦~!!
真是觉得自己真的很糟糕.

argghhhhhhhhh~!!!!!

很烦啦~! 怎么办?
做么要现在才来跟我讲换日期...
而且还要等那么久,那我要干嘛 =="

我看只有去做工吧. 顺便可以存一些钱 =)
好笑吗.... ==

现在我担心的是怎样开口跟爸爸讲.
他一定骂死我料咯.
haih~~怎么办... 我想哭了 T.T
为什么我这样的不幸啊??????

为什么最近发生这样多令人懊恼的事~~
不是朋友的事..就是钱的事..不是钱的事..现在就是读书的事
永远都有问题的人生... 为什么~!!
可以让我休息一下吗??? 我很累咧
怎样开口...谁可以教我~~
haih~反正我就是不配有很好的人生...不配有很好的生活...
不配有很好的朋友...
自己已经开始进入emo的心情料...
是我的问题我知道 ==

okay...好吧~ 坦然的面对啦你陈韦伶.
心里却挣扎:我做不到 T.T 怎样好?
曾经是看过这样的一句话啦...
不祈求有很好的生活, 只祈求自己可以很坚强的面对生活.
挺有意思的. 那等下就祈祷让自己更坚强吧 =)

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我也不懂自己在干嘛其实...
只是把当下的心情都写了出来, 感觉很累...
我要去睡觉了. 然后再规划自己应该怎么样吧

我只希望自己在对的时候做自己该做的事.
话是这样说的吗? ... 其实我不知道

Arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!

好想像狮子一样的大声怒吼一次 =)
我希望自己可以养一只吃素的狮子....... ==" *okay我傻了*
其实, 我更希望有好朋友. =)

好啦..我废话完了啦. =)

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May 02, 2009 | 10:04 PM

blogskin || Back to top, baby.

feel wanna change my blogskin =) found some of the blogskins which I am satisfied with the design. ♥ But, I have to lost all my links and stuffs and put in those stuffs again. I feel irritating to do so~ haha. So, I give up.

and one thing... my brother bought a new handphone just now. awwww~ I wan too~!!
*sigh* but, my salary was gone to buy clothes and skincare ='(

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April 23, 2009 | 12:13 AM

expression || Back to top, baby.

I don't know how to express my feeling now. I just wanna try to tell someone who love to show off whatever to me. Indeed, I don't need your comment at all!! I have my own style in doing my things. This what I wanna to say out in my blog =) Sometimes I know what I am doing or whatever, if you think that you know me more than myself, then you go ahead =) But now, you're not! So, behave yourself too =) thanks~ I had express my feeling. hehehehe

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So, talk about today. I was having a bad result again. I found that I keep on chit-chat with my colleague. I think I have a responsible on this. We had spoil the day actually. I admit that I really not in the mood for working. Of course I am sorry for that although I know that there's no such thing like sorry after everything is happened =( . Obviously, my problem is keep on chatting with others. Sometimes, this might influence others' result. So, I have to change my habit *sigh* After working, we had our supple at chai leng park there. I am now full =) *winks

Tomorrow gonna work at Gurney for half day. here to wish myself and everyone: ALL the best!

*We were snapping some photos when working =) Post up tomorrow I think. I wanna go to bed already. *very tired*

Good night to everyone =)

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April 17, 2009 | 8:21 AM

alert || Back to top, baby.

better be more alert today, ling!!!

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haha~ I had nothing to do so... Going to work later on.
And something make me annoyed. ishhhh~

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April 04, 2009 | 12:49 AM

*I ain't the worst || Back to top, baby.

I am totally bad in mood now *down* feeling like from heaven falls to the hell ='(

I actually quite satisfied with mine today. It's might not for others I think. But at least it's quite a good performance for me. I already try my own best. I am not good as others but be frank I think I really try my best, maybe I am not suitable for it.I feel sad for it because I didn't hit my target for quite a long long time d.

My legs was getting cramped today. haih~ What's wrong with my legs har.... Never mind, my legs will get rest tomorrow. =) *winks* Actually I hate to reave with others. I really wonder why I have to do these? because of money? or what else? Sometimes, I really don't want to disturb others' conversation when they were shopping. But, I have no choice because this is my job. I felt embarrassing sometimes *shy* whatever la~ none of them will understand me. I know that I have to get more confidence with myself. I believe that I can do better. I won't let *you felt dissapointed.

And one thing, I get my cheque today. I get very least salary for last month. I know I had regress a lot. *sigh*

Everything will be alright tomorrow =)

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